It’s all positive. The last 3 weeks have been incredible... "normal" incredible! I have driven my kids here and there - errands, outings, appointments. I have been to several movies. This week started with a 3-day trip to
This is a link to one, which is considered a "thrill ride" so it's not for sissies...
And the "Old No. 2 Logging Company Log Flume" which is similar to the one in this photo from another park...
Three days after the trip there, my friend Summer and I took all 4 of our kids to
I added a third medicine to the line-up about 3 weeks ago and it has seemed to make all the difference. Know what's really ironic? It's the medicine that I weaned myself from last summer b/c I HATED taking it!!!! I have been resistant to it and finally gave in to give it another try. For some reason it works wonders in combination with the other 2 meds I'm on. Of course, God couldn’t put it past me the life lesson that sometimes the things we dread and hate the most bring us the most relief. I don't dread evenings and bedtime anymore - I actually look forward to a good night's rest. And the fact I actually went on some theme park rides and didn't dream about them all night is SO COOL!
Our family is going to the beach for a week before school starts - a vacation that we had to miss last year. And I have no qualms or reservations that I will enjoy every minute of it.
I eased back to running on June 2. I used the Couch to 5K program and am now running 4-5 days a week. That helps enormously with my overall mood and disposition.
Spiritually I feel a little held up. I feel that several months ago God just went silent on me. And I'm slowly realizing it's not a bad thing. It's testing my fervor and commitment to him. If I continue to seek and knock and ask when I don't "feel" his response then I am giving him just what he wants - a passionate pursuit. Admittedly it is difficult to have deep, lengthy quiet times every day with two 7-year-olds underfoot and for that reason I am looking forward to school starting back in a couple of weeks.
I still keep thinking that a "hallelujah, I'm healed" moment is coming, but everything is just happening very gradually. I regularly attend life group and church now on Sundays... I can't really pinpoint the moment that part of my life became normal again; it just kinda happened.
So I guess I'm still on the uphill climb out of the valley and I haven't reached the summit yet where more of this makes sense and my purpose or calling from the peak becomes clearer.
Thank you for your continued prayer. Thank you for being so joyful when you see me out. Please pray that I will stay grounded and not forget a minute of this journey. Please pray that God's calling will be crystal clear when his timing is right.